black lives matter.

sorry if this post is kind of a mess, but it’s important regardless.

if you’ve been paying any attention to the news or social media, you’ll have noticed the black lives matter movement.

personally, i’ve always supported it but i never really took actual action or really talked about it to anybody until recently. after hearing about george floyd and seeing so many decide that enough is enough, i did what a lot of people are doing and started to become more active and outspoken on this.

it’s like so many people are saying: staying silent on this situation is enabling the oppressor. not supporting black lives matter is supporting the opposite.

i don’t know how any human being with basic empathy can say that the blm movement is bad. there are so many black people killed by police just for their race.

and so many of the cops that killed them don’t face any consequences.

because they “felt threatened.”

it’s interesting how when a white murderer is waving a weapon around, their arrest is non-violent and peaceful, but when a black person does literally nothing, they’re killed.

a lot of people additionally say that because the black person “was probably a drug dealer” or in a gang that it makes it okay. that doesn’t make it okay. did the cop know that when they saw them? could they sense the fact that the person sold drugs or was in a gang? and why would they have assumed it? and anyway, even if that was true, they didn’t deserve to die. i think the book the hate u give sort of touches on that topic a little more, so please read that book if you get the chance.

black lives matter. that doesn’t mean black lives matter more, or that other lives don’t matter.

black lives matter shouldn’t be a controversial statement.

trayvon martin was walking home with iced tea and skittles. he was shot by a cop, who was found not guilty.

keith scott was sitting in his car, reading. he was shot by another cop – not charged.

stephon clark was shot eight times for holding a cell phone. the officers weren’t charged.

amadou diallo was taking out his wallet. he was shot fourty one times. the four officers were acquitted.

tamir rice, a twelve year old, played with a toy gun. he was shot immediately. the officer was not charged. his family is working to get his case reopened, please sign this petition.

breonna taylor, who should’ve turned twenty seven three days ago, was sleeping in her house. she was shot eight times. the cops have faced no consequences. sign this.

george floyd. who was kneeled on and suffocated to death. his last words were, “i can’t breathe.”

i could go on.

i see so many people say that this isn’t that many people.

any amount of lives lost is too many.

cops should not be above the law. people are supposed to be able to call them when there’s violence. black people should not have to be afraid of the people they’re supposed to call for help.

there’s a talk that many black families have to have with their children. the talk of what to do when a cop approaches you. tell them what you’re about to do. no sudden movements. keep your hands where they can see them.

this shouldn’t be something black children have to worry about.

i hope one day, there’ll be a time when the future generation refers to events similar to this as something that was a long time ago, and doesn’t happen anymore, just like how to us, slavery in america was forever ago. i hope that one day, something changes.

for now, all we can do is fight. even if all you do is sign petitions, or call out someone you know on racism, or research the subject – help them. support your black friends, neighbors, doctors, any black person.

personally, i could easily stop fighting at any moment. right now, i could just decide that i don’t care anymore, and i could pretend like i don’t know what’s going on. you could ignore this post and go on with your life.

but for black people, it’s not that easy. they don’t have the option to just ignore it. for them, they’re not fighting for some people they barely know, but for themselves and their families. and they can’t do it alone. we should be using our privilege to spread awareness of this topic.

if subjects like this make you uncomfortable, good. cops killing people SHOULD make you uncomfortable. if you don’t want to see posts and articles about people being killed for the color of their skin, help stop it so we don’t have to see it anymore.

not to be all corny, but to see a change, we have to be the change.

read books and watch shows/movies about it. sign petitions. do your research. 

i saw a post on instagram that said, “i’d rather offend my white friends than bury my black friends.” i think that says enough.

in conclusion, black lives have always mattered, and will continue to matter for the rest of time. it’s time we started acting like it.

may 5, 2020

it’s may and we’re still stuck at home. can you believe that we thought that this would last only a few weeks to a month? I remember my friends and i saying that there was no way school would be closed for the rest of the year, but here we are. it’s strange that we went from being at school for seven hours per day to never leaving the house. not super mindblowing, but kind of weird that this is the new normal. at this point, it’d be weird to be able to freely go out. it would be weird to go to school, or to go to target without gloves and a mask. and honestly, it doesn’t feel like we’ll ever be able to go out, at least not in the same way we could before. so many people are saying that when we are allowed out, we’ll have to wear masks and gloves. even to school. and that’s so weird because it might start feeling normal and it’s hard to imagine wearing a mask every day when you go to school. it’s even more weird thinking about how they might change the way we sit at lunch. it’s like the normal school experience is over. and combined with the fact that i’m already going to two new schools next year (high school but i got into this other stem school so i alternate which school i go to) it’ll be super unfamiliar. it’ll be a different environment combined with different rules. it isn’t that big of a deal, but my friends and i think they might cancel stuff like dances since people aren’t exactly six feet apart at those. and that’s just one example of how even little dumb things like that are gonna change even when this pandemic ends.

however, i think that we’re lucky that we can stay in contact in ways like video chatting, social media and texting. we’re very lucky that when this happened, we were at a point where we could get information about it super easily and that we can still interact with friends and family even if it’s not in the same way. thanks to today’s technology, it’s easy for us to hear from health officials, presidents, and the news in general. even online concerts are happening. even if it’s weird being locked up, all this makes it much more bearable.

anyways make sure to stay home!!!! and don’t be dumb and protest!!! the only way to get stuff back open is to stay inside!!!!!!

quarantine – april 26

okay so it’s been like a month since i wrote here, but since then, animal crossing has come out, i finished anne with an e, we’ve started online school, the virus has spread more, school has been closed for the rest of the year, and now people are apparently drinking lysol. 

so, animal crossing. a Lot of people have been playing it lately. it’s kind of the only place where (positive) things are really happening at the moment. even though i don’t play it as much as a lot of other people, i still very much enjoy it !!

anne with an e is very good. 10/10 would recommend. please watch it, it’s on netflix and it’s just very good and deals with a lot of important issues and it’s just great.

okay, online school. i think most students right now would agree with me when i say i kind of hate it. it feels like they’re giving us so much more work and at my school, a lot of teachers are using this thing called edmentum which nobody really likes. it doesn’t really teach as well, for geometry it has this thing called geogebra which is confusing and hard to operate, and a lot of people have had trouble with being locked out of assignments or their work being erased. it’s just not a great situation. it’s also hard for a lot of people to have motivation to do their work. some people just find it difficult to care about schoolwork when there’s a whole pandemic going on; others just have trouble focusing in their house, especially if surrounded by loud relatives. it can also be hard to self-teach instead of having teachers teach you. generally, even though we know that they’re trying their best, online school isn’t exactly going great.

oh yeah, also, this school year is over. my middle school career is over. people who are seniors don’t get a prom or graduation 🙁

a lot of people are saying that people can’t be sad since people are dying but like. you can be upset about something small and also acknowledge the fact that you’re lucky to be alive. also, even if it may not sound like that big of a deal, people need to understand that students spend most of their life thinking about school. like, we go there almost everyday and study and do our homework and it’s all supposed to lead up to graduation. it just kind of sucks that they aren’t getting something they’ve looked forward to for years.

and generally, it’s such a weird feeling that i’m not going back to my middle school. the next time i have school, it’ll be an entire different school. and that’s just weird to think about.

okay, so now, you might ask, why are people supposedly considering drinking lysol? well according to forbes, a few days ago, president trump said, “i see the disinfectant where it knocks it out in a minute, one minute… is there a way we can do something like that, by injection inside or almost a cleaning? because you see it gets in the lungs, and it does a tremendous number on the lungs, so it’d be interesting to check that.” so basically he suggested that we could use disinfectant? in the human body???? no offense but like …. i don’t think that’s how it works???? you can’t have bleach like… in your body? you’re going to die?? i’m not completely sure if people are actually drinking it (i’ve just heard they have) but i very much hope they aren’t. anyways, please don’t drink bleach or inject it into your body or whatever!

anyways this situation is not only weird but scary. people are all living in fear and there are people who are dying. all we can do right now is pray for people that are losing their lives, family members, or jobs, and hope everything ends up okay.  and please stay home!! and if it’s absolutely necessary to go out, make sure to wear masks and gloves and stay six feet apart from people. basically just make sure you social distance.

first week of corona break!

so, as you probably know, there was a recent outbreak of covid-19 and now everybody is going crazy. there’s no toilet paper, people are wearing masks in public, streets are empty. it’s kind of like… apocalyptic. 

because of this, the schools in my county have been closed for, at the moment, eight days, including the weekend. (i’m including the weekend because we literally can’t go anywhere on the weekends too.) it’s kind of surreal, schools being closed because of a virus. we’re starting to think that we aren’t going back this year.

i’m not really sure how we’re gonna progress if we aren’t going back this year. like, i’m sure the elementary schoolers will be fine, but high schoolers and middle schoolers taking high school courses? what are we supposed to do? especially high schoolers. i hope nobody has to repeat a grade. that would actually suck. but i doubt it’ll happen. i was assuming summer school, but what if everything’s still like this, or worse, by june?

at the moment, march 20, there’s 274 confirmed cases in the dmv (dc, maryland, virginia) area and 94 in virginia. that’s kind of a lot. like maybe it doesn’t seem like a lot since it’s less people than how many are in my grade, but like. if you consider how many different houses and cities these people live in, lots of infecting could’ve happened.

okay so i guess i should give you a day by day thing?

so before march 12, we heard about how bad it was getting and all wanted schools to be closed. but nobody actually expected things to happen. 

march 12, 7 am, i woke up, laid in bed, not wanting to get up, when my mom came into my room. she told me to go back to sleep, and as much as i would’ve liked to, i was like “huh?”

school was closed. because of a global pandemic.

if it was a snow day, i would’ve gone back to sleep. but this was just so weird that i had to get up and get my phone.

kids from my school weren’t super surprised, just asking “ew do we still have to work?” and “wait how long are we closed?” at the moment we were going back on the 23rd.

later that day, everyone did have a conversation about how bizarre it is. well, not really bizarre, but weird for us. one of my friends kept talking about how we’re a part of history, which is kind of cool but still like… not good.

march 13th, 2020 

this day was my final day of freedom. okay, i’m being overdramatic, but it was the last day i hung out with my friends as of now. i went to the park, basically my whole friend group gathered there too, we looked at the flowers and enjoyed the nice weather and played with a dog. then, we burst into another friend’s house because i’ve never been inside his house before. that was fun. anyways, we ate pizza, i tried coke, and it was fun.

after that, all of our parents decided we were quarantined, which was kind of annoying. 

the next few days, we just kind of hung out at home and watched shows and movies and did nothing.

by march 15th, i was already tired of it.

okay, now i’m gonna be annoying and spoiled and complain about stuff.

i was literally actually enjoying this year? like covid-19 really had to mess up eighth grade for me. i was looking forward to the high school field trip, i didn’t mind school itself even though i complained a lot, and i just generally was looking forward to stuff. oh, and i was going to europe this summer, which most likely isn’t happening anymore. also. i would’ve had a high school orientation next week, but now it’s being shifted to who knows when. (okay they actually did give a date but i feel like it’s getting shifted farther than that.)

oh also there’s some online learning stuff starting next week. i’ll talk about that when it starts.

so in conclusion, nobody’s allowed to go places, we have no school, and everything is boring.

everyone’s actually starting to want school. something i never thought would happen.

the new animal crossing came out, though, so i get to play that! see you next week!

Gun Control and the National School Walkout

If you haven’t been living under a rock, you probably know about all the school shootings going on here in the US. There have been way too many deaths caused by shootings this year, and it’s only been 3 months.

One of the biggest shootings that has gotten the most attention as of recently is the one in Florida.

This shooting was done by someone who went to school with them. A teenager.

Why is it that a teenager can get a gun in this country without a license?

The government is just giving students “thoughts and prayers.” We don’t need “thoughts and prayers.”

What we need is gun control. Not a complete gun ban, but at least make it so that an 18 year old can’t get an assault rifle. Someone who has a history of murder in a different location could come here and get any gun. We need a higher age limit. We need thorough background checks. We need to require a license to buy a gun. We need something, anything, to stop these shootings.

Some arguments against gun control consist of “it won’t help,” and “people will get them anyway!” To those people, I say to take a look at other countries. The UK has had no shootings ever since they introduced gun control twenty years ago.

Other people argue, “this is my second amendment right!” First of all, I guess some people are unaware, but the Constitution has been changed before. It’s been changed to ban slavery and to give everyone the right to vote and many other things. Another thing I’d like to ask these people is if they care more about their “second amendment right” or about their children’s lives.

Why, you ask, is the government doing nothing? Because a group called the NRA, National Rifle Association, is giving them money. Thousands of dollars. Because apparently, money is more important than our students’ lives.

Because of all this, EMPOWER, which is the youth branch of the women’s march, has organized a national school walkout. This means that on March 14th, at 10:00 am, students across the country will walk out of school and stand in silence for 17 minutes, one minute for each person who died in the Florida shooting.

Many schools say not to, and people may get detention or a suspension, but over 250 colleges say they will still accept students who participate in it.

My school says we’ll get in trouble, but I plan on doing it anyway, because this is what I believe in.

If you believe in something, if it can affect you or your friends as well, you should stand up for it regardless of the consequences. I was blessed with extremely supportive parents, but if yours are strict, then you aren’t required to. If it causes you pain, you shouldn’t. But if you’re like me and have good reasons to do it and nothing to lose, then go for it. This is something I believe in and I will stand for it. My mom’s also taking me to a march in Washington, DC on the 24th. You should do that too, if possible.

Do everything you can to stand up for what you believe in.

To see a change, we have to be the change.

FBI Junior Agent Thing

So… I’m alive.
Wow. I start posts like that a lot.
Anyways, so I’m gonna pretend I haven’t been posting nothing here forever and act like this is just another regular post.
Today, I went to this FBI Junior Agent camp thing.
Gotta tell you, it’s not as fun as it sounds.
I mean, I guess it was fun, but it isn’t really as cool as you’d think.

I arrived there and walked into a classroom. There were literally only three other people in the room. It was completely silent. I awkwardly seated mys elf at the back table next to a girl. For a while, we just sat there quietly, the only sound being a boy who was constantly walking around the room. It was much too quiet, but I was too awkward to break the silence. Eventually, I began talking to the girl and we became friends. Her name was Eshal. Kids came in slowly, until there were 19 kids in the room. For some reason, the girls all sat at the back half of the room, and all the boys were up front. There were only like 7 girls though. So, the teachers were called Ms. D and Ms. P.
“We need more diversity in the seating!” They exclaimed. “Who wants to volunteer to switch seats?” There was a silence. Nobody at all volunteered.
Since nobody was willing to move, obviously, they decided to number us off. I was in group 3, and Eshal was in group 4. At first, we were disappointed, but then the teachers said groups 3 and 4 were at the same table. We didn’t even have to move seats, which was nice. Then, the teachers gave us name signs. On these name signs, they told us to draw three things we liked. I drew the logos for Hamilton, Dear Evan Hansen, and Be More Chill. (Great musicals, by the way. You should listen to them if you haven’t already.) Then, I drew the Harry Potter and Percy Jackson symbols. They said to draw three, and I wasn’t sure what else to put, so I ended up drawing a heart and writing the word Undertale. (That’s a video game, which is really fun. I’ve been playing it lately.) Eshal drew popcorn, snow, and Spongebob. She’s random, I guess.
Then we had to talk about what we drew. I just said, “I like books, musicals, and Undertale.”
“Books, music, and what?” Ms. D asked.
“Books, musicals and Undertale. It’s a game.”
“Oh, it’s a game… I’ve never heard of it! You should tell me more about it later,” she said. I just nodded. The other people went, and then we actually started the stuff.
“What do values make you think of?” They asked. I yawned, unable to hold it in. Then, of course, Ms. D called on me.
“Um,” I stuttered. “Like… life rules?” I suggested. It was kind of a stupid answer, but I was put on the spot. She kinda looked at me and nodded.
“Life rules, sure.”
“Why me?” I whispered to Eshal. She just laughed at me. The teachers went on to ask others for an answer. They started talking about stuff being worth a lot and valuable and stuff. Oh well. We talked about core values, which are obedience of the Constitution, respect, accountability, diversity, integrity, and fairness. Then, we had to draw a poster with our groups. Since Eshal was the only girl in her group, and I was the only girl in mine, they switched some boy out for her. We had to do diversity and integrity. For diversity, we drew a person’s face split in half. One half was male and had rainbow hair and glasses while the other half was female with freckles. For integrity, we drew one side which was not integrity, and one which was. The not side had a kid watching TV when he’s supposed to do his homework. The other side showed the same kid doing his homework even though his parents aren’t home. Then, we had to present. We just described what was going on in our pictures. That was pretty much all we did for three hours. Overall, it was fun, I guess. I’ll be doing it once a month for like 6 sessions so yeah… Bye now.


Hey guys! Soooo I’m alive… hehe sorry for disappearing, I forgot about this site…. Anyways, life is goooood and that’s the way it shouuulddd be….. Not much has happened… I LOVE HAMILTON NOW OMG, IMAGINE DRAGONS IS MY FAVORITE BAND, AND YEAH. I wanna redo the about me thing again just because I feel like I have changed so much even since the last time I talked about myself… I’m gonna talk about Hamilton and stuff in a while but YEAH OKAY LIFE IS WELL.



It’s me!!!

Yeah… I’m alive. Yay.

My friend Hazel/Sea Otter reminded me to post here because I kinda disappeared…

I think I’m gonna try to post more? Idk….

Well I will do an update in a while, right now I have stuff to do.

See y’all later!